Having just gone thru some of this myself recently, it is indeed a heartbreaking thing to go through. 
Spd, I said this before and I will say it again. I know it isn't easy, but you have to think about giving Sabrina some peace and rest. Maybe it is time to let her go. It sounds like that would be the kindest thing to do right now.
I wish, when I finally realized that something was wrong with Tonka, that someone would have said this to me. No one wanted to because they didn't want to have me hurt and I understand that, but perhaps it would have helped me to think clearer and the decision would have been a bit easier and I could have saved my friend from the extra days of pain and suffering.
You know me and you know I would never make this kind of suggestion lightly. I also know it is one of the hardest things we end up doing as pet owners.
It would be an act of love and Sabrina would be waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge to say thank you.
You know where to reach me if you want to talk.
I know exactly how spd feels, with Sabrina being his cat and with him most of the time.
Tonka was like that with me. He was my cat and was always with me wherever I was.
It will be hard for a while, but having the other animals around does help. When our fist kitty had to be put down at 6 months old, I was a basket case for months afterwards. We had no other cats at the time and I was adamant about not gettiing another one. Took my husband 13 months of trying before I gave in and Tonka was the result.
Knowing spd, there is another one out there who needs the same love and affection and care that he gave to Sabrina and gives to all of them and they will find their way to him. 
JiminSTLouis wrote:Sorry to hear about your loss spd! Our Abby (Neelix) got sick a few weeks ago. Between the vet tests, a weekend at the animal hospital and all the meds, we spent over $700.00 to fix him up. He had a urinary track infection and stopped eating and drinking and was severely dehydrated. It sure was sad around the house for a while but he is "almost" back to his old self. What we won't do for our little family members.
All our thoughts!
A UTI in a male cat can turn very deadly in a short time. Tonka had that and developed the crystals with it. Real costly and time consuming and we almost lost him. Thankfully, we knew what to look for since then and caught it before it turned into the crystal situation again.
So many things can go wrong with these guys and yet they can't say what it is they are feeling or where it hurts.
showtime48 wrote:
same here pip, when our chazz got it costs us a grand, many trips to the vet, overnight stays and now prescription cat food. what can you do. spd, you doing allright tonight?...
Us too Dennis. Ever since Tonka's episode, we've fed these guys Hill's Prescription Diet WD dry food. Costly? Yes, but cheaper in the long run, if you get my drift.
It's lower in the content that can cause the bladder troubles for male cats. Not sure if it is the ash content or magneseum, but it seems to be better for them. I was feeding them Iams prior to that and our vet said feeding her cats Iams, ended up with problems in their male cats also.
I'm sure spd is still hurting real bad, but he will be back...when he's ready.
I told spd this quote when I PM'd him yesterday and it is so true.
From Roger Caras........
"Pets are not our whole lives, but they make our lives whole."
So true, so very true.
Here's a pic of Sabrina that I promised. The Specialist who did the necropsy called yesterday late with the results. She had Cancer, Lymphoma and it was all over, liver, kidneys, lungs, but not in the heart. Doc said she was just unlucky in having that all at once. Sabrina's dad died suddenly of lung cancer, so as I thought, this may be hereditary.
